I'm getting through it now, and I guess it's plain to see that everything I am, is not everything you need. And i'm standiing here alone, can't tell if i'm awake, reality is gone, in a dream I can't escape.

Standing here, i'm cold inside with fear, and I can't feel my soul. I feel weak, and i'm slowly losing touch with what is left in me.

This time, nothing feels right to me and i'm sinking deeper within. I'll wait for you to loose sight of me, before I bleed again.

So it's over now, finally. I'm beneath and i'm crawling out on my knees. I can hear what you said echoing in my head and i'm losing myself. Now i'm cold on the floor and I don't care anymore cuz it's over.

I can finally feel. So i guess it's over now. And you broke me down somehow. Now i'm faltering, I can see, I can be, I can leave and shut you out. And i'm leaving now, somehow. Underneath, as I slowly drown, finally.

This time i'm the one to blame. And now i'm withholding all the pain and I still remember how i hurt myself when I shut this all away. This time, no one can hear me. I feel so far away from healing, so i'm stepping back inside of me. This time, the voice is screaming, it screams in me silently.

Shutting my eyes, i'm dying inside. I've lost myself a thousand times. But I can relate despite of the pain. I'll cross this line, just one last time. They are part of me, these wounds that never heal. They still remind me that all of this is real. Hiding from the world, lost in this disease, so you can never see the darkest side of me. I feel so infected from these memories.

suri thought at 5:36 PM