I sometimes wish i was stronger.. On the inside. Sometimes i wish i'd just stop hurting. I don't want to feel this meaningless haunting past. Not anymore. Because i'm in the present. I want to live in the present.

I wish something would hit me on the head and heart so hard right now that it'll knock whatever's haunting me. I wish i could forget. I wish i couldn't feel. I wish i wouldn't think. I wish i could just close my eyes and let my tears evaporate.

I want to forget. I want so much to forget. But the strings are tying me down. My demons are surrounding me. They're speaking to me. My angels seem to abandon me. I'm sure they've left me.

It's not so easy. Only time will tell. And i shall be the ruler of my own thoughts again. I'd share my broken world with you.. If you want. If you don't mind the shards of glass that's stained by my blood.

Lost in you like saturday nights, searching the streets with bedroom eyes just dying to be saved.

suri thought at 8:32 PM