Inside me, empty is how you left. i am confused, i am scared, i am alone. I am without you.
You are heartless, without compassion. I will watch you die, i will not cry. Haze clouds these translucent eyes. Sweat creeps down my callused hands. The lies outside i cannot feel, the pain inside burns.

As the tears slip, she does it again. Scarred, bruised and broken, to the ground in tears i fall. Sadness locked inside me. Time ticks by and soon i realize life won'e end. It can't end... not like this, not without sorrow and not with fear.

I know you are scared, cause i am too. The pain inside burns. I know you cared. Why did you leave? From my knees i now stand, begging for freedom from my cage. Now praising life for what i was given. From my knees i now stand, bleeding for you from my heart. Now hating life for what was taken from me. You.

I miss you Meatball... I will always remember you. staying up with me while i rush my art homework. Everytime i turn to look at how nice and warm u are in your home, while im all wrapped up in my sweaters. How peaceful you look when you are sleeping. How your paws twitch when you dream of things.. How you eat when you sleep. You were my longest living hamster. I tried to pair u up with Lestat.. but i guess that didn't turn out.

Rest in peace my dearest Meatball. i love you... :'(

suri thought at 3:20 AM