Bun Bun had to be euthanized..... I felt her pain while i was filling up a "first timer" form as she was kicking in her basket. Suddenly everyone grew silent as i lost control of my emotions while trying to calm her down. The pain was real. The agonizing wait to see the vet felt like forever.. But letting her go was the best option for her. I carried her in my arms. cradled like a baby. They injected the neon green solution into a vein from her ear. It was painful to watch the vet poke the sharp needle into her vein.. i held Bun Bun's paw tightly as the vet injected the solution. I kissed her for the last time and in about 2 minutes, she was gone. 8.54pm she was gone. Her muscles contracted and she seemed like she was gasping.. for about 4 or 5 times. But she was gone.

I put her into the basket and went to Jean-Paul's place to bury her. We borrowed a mini gardening scoop thing because we couldn't find a shovel. We placed her in a Macbeth shoe box with towels for comfort. I closed her eyes, gave her one last pat and we placed her into the hole that JP dug and then we filled the empty spaces with soil, packing it nice and tight.

I guess burying Bun Bun helped me find the closure i needed to her death. I feel like a part of me is buried with her in the shoe box. I only hope that she remember's me in what JP calls, "rodent heaven", where all our rodent pets are happily frolicking in alfalfa meadows.

I miss Bun Bun.. i really do.. But i hope she's happier now.. I hope her pain is gone. All that's left to do is to bring Meatball's body over on wednesday to be buried beside Bun Bun.

I don't think i'll be able to accept any rabbits as long as i'm alive. The pain of losing one is too much to bear. And probably no hamsters for now..

suri thought at 12:05 AM