I remember when i was young and my mom would shove a few coins in my hand pushing me to any disabled persons on the street to donate, saying that it will bring good karma to myself. And now, when i've learnt what my mom taught me and put it to good use, i get naggings from my mom AND my grandma.

My pregnant malay neighbour who lives just above us, was frantically knocking at our door and my sister and i went to see what the problem was, I thought our tv was too loud or something but she was speaking so fast she could hardly catch her breath. Basically, she needed to borrow $40 to bring her 2 year old child who's having a high fever to a 24hour doctor because the one downstairs is closed. She told us that her husband was not home so she had no money and her unit number and stuff. And one can tell she's desperate to bring her child to the doctor. Not to mention she was almost in tears and promised upon Allah to return it. So my sister and I conjoured up $50 because we're both flat broke.

I just don't understand how my mom and grandmother, being the ones with the most money in the house could be so cold hearted and turn a deaf ear, after all that talk abt what goes around comes around and karma and doing good deeds to redeeme yourself.

Even though my mom didn't give me my allowance this week, I personally feel good about lending her the money even if I don't get it back, because I trust my instincts. I trust my human compassion. I trust that what i've been taught will prevail.

And now, I only have $3.30 on me.

suri thought at 10:46 PM